My car broke down. I bought a truck. I have to pay for tags, insurance, the truck itself, school, I owe my mother and brother money. I'm broke. I was reading my last blog, and I noticed how I said things would go downhill in a few weeks, and well...I'm staring up at the mountain.

I have an amazing girlfriend. She's fun to be around with, she reminds me that she likes me, and she has even made some brownies for me. =) I still feel overwhelmed with stress though. Although college is supposed to be a stressful, but fun time in ones life, I think I'm dealing with it rather well.

I'm ready to move. At the end of this school year, i'll be headed to Oklahoma to live. It'll be like starting off new. I'll only have 1 person that I'll know there, but other than that, I have to find a new job, start at a new school, and make ends meet as far as money goes. Life is hard.

I'm learning to deal with my struggles easier though. I've been trying to get closer to god, and by doing that, I know that what I'm doing here isn't for me...its for him. Right? I guess I'm still trying to convince myself of that. I have lost some friends. The wall that guarded their values and morals have been breached by the college experience and while that has effected them, its also effected me. I need new friends, so that's what I'm working on. (I should correct myself. I still love them...I just need some more that are like me....)