You ever feel like you're the gum on somebody's shoe? That's how I've felt lately with a lot of my friends. One in particular seems to boss me around and take control of everything...even my own things. He's bigger than me..so what do I do? It's funny sometimes, but other times its annoying, especially when it keeps on happening.
I also hate being the butt end of jokes. It's okay sometimes, I can keep a joke, but when its a constant thing.....it makes you think, are they really joking? I also hate giving jokes to people who can't handle them. My best friend can't take a joke at all. You make a funny comment or something and he gets physical. It's not fair...how about you retaliate with wit and not strength.
I hate having to come home while hanging out with new people and being interrogated. I just want my own life separated from my brother and my main set of friends. I'm glad I have a set of best friends..but I just wish they wouldn't care so much as to what i'm doing..I'm able to do things by myself. I've got a job, a car, money, and my own set of wants.
Anyhow, I got offered a place to live next school semester but I'd have to transfer colleges, which I've already been debating. I'm ready to get out of Winfield. WSU would be a nice place to go. The friends I were hanging out with today said I could live with them because they've got a house, and it's a nice one. WSU offers my major as well and I have friends who go there. Plus I'd love to escape my best friend. He lives with me and doesn't have a job and only 7 hours of classes. When I'm not working or at school, he's with me. I like to get out and do different things and its just like he's suffocating me...ha.
I complain a lot on here, but, i've got a lot of things that need to get out, and this is a pretty good way. Even if a complete stranger reads this. ha.
I've been really happy this last week because something I wanted seemed to me to be coming true, but then these last few days have gotten me in a depressed type of mood because i think i'm wrong....
Life's complicated.
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