In college, a person can lose themselves. Actually, in just the grand scheme of life, a person can become someone they never thought possible. When you're young, you know who your friends are and you know who you are, but when sin and people who make bad decisions are introduced into your life, things are different.

Some people are people pleasers. They do what others want to do even though it may not be part of your lifestyle. I think so far, I've done what I've wanted to do. At first, I didn't see why it was so hard to choose who you want to be and stick with it. But as things don't work out the way you want them to, you choose new people to hangout with and then they are able to creep things into your life. Also, when people you've grown up with and love and have always been the ones you go to when your other friends are off drinking and being the average young adult and then they start becoming the average person, you have nobody to stick with. Nobody to relate to you. So you make wrong decisions to keep up with the friends you've known forever.

I drank for the first time a couple weeks ago. I've been totally against it, but through a chain of events, and friends who are doing it...I felt like I was becoming tempted too much.

I've been asked to go again a couple times since, but I said no. I don't think I'll do it again. I didn't really like it....I don't really regret it though.

I know what its all about now, plus I can't judge people anymore for doing it. I don't have that hatred for it that I did.


In other news: I think I'm going to take another year of pre-pharmacy at SWOSU. Perhaps live there and hopefully get into their pharmacy school.